Unleashed Thoughts Of The Outspoken Introvert

When you can fake a smile and everyone believe..... When life moves on around you and yet you're anchored in time... stuck in your past mistakes...imprisoned by regrets about a life you could have had.... and shame you wear but do not own. When being you isn't good enough......When you give your all to be left empty and alone.....when it feels so right but you know its so wrong..... when your heart needs mending or your fire has burned out.... and the one you thought held the spark leaves you with doubt......when being beautiful, and kind, and loyal isn't enough to make him stay or make him want you.....When keeping your clothes on is no longer the norm... and jumping in bed is expected... When a nice smile and pretty eyes isn't enough.... but showing skin makes you tough..When you want what you want and know what you deserve....but look around at a cold sad world and realize that you are part of the minority.... A GOOD girl trying to stay Good in a world that expects y...

So this time was my fault, I'm still living in the past But how do you move on when the assurance never lasts Everything that he says has all been heard before So how do I know I am not hearing the same old lies as before Trust? Certainty based on past experience...complete confidence in a person or plan.. So how can we be expected to trust when the last one wasn't ready to be man? I love you... I care.....but give me some space... when what he really means is Im too busy for you, when I need you again i will show my face It's true, I know they're not the same but the damage has been done And because of the past another relationship is ruin before it's even begun

Regret filled tears fall from my eyes... falsified yet glorified... The heart denies what the mind justifies, and those pretty thick lips spit lies... Tired of pretending... Defending... And depending on cowards.. Yeah I said it... The takers.. heart breakers... Ice makers....you can count the heart in their chests... but they're cold as ice at best ... Selfish and only out for themselves... They will use and abuse... Come and go as they choose....playing games they're not afraid to lose. Cause misery loves company, never mind ones destiny.. Expecting me to beg for you to be a friend to me. All the while I've never failed you, never left you, never judged you and always chose you... Your loss....I truly loved you but you were to stubborn and selfish and still I never exposed you. Blaming your environment on the man you became what a shame when you could have became.... ANYTHING...that life wasn't forced on you it's one that you claimed... Unashamed you became.....