Unleashed Thoughts Of The Outspoken Introvert

Although my heart may be battered and bruised.....This broken heart beats strong... With a hope and a purpose only love knows. #beautifullybroken

When you can fake a smile and everyone believe..... When life moves on around you and yet you're anchored in time... stuck in your past mistakes...imprisoned by regrets about a life you could have had.... and shame you wear but do not own. When being you isn't good enough......When you give your all to be left empty and alone.....when it feels so right but you know its so wrong..... when your heart needs mending or your fire has burned out.... and the one you thought held the spark leaves you with doubt......when being beautiful, and kind, and loyal isn't enough to make him stay or make him want you.....When keeping your clothes on is no longer the norm... and jumping in bed is expected... When a nice smile and pretty eyes isn't enough.... but showing skin makes you tough..When you want what you want and know what you deserve....but look around at a cold sad world and realize that you are part of the minority.... A GOOD girl trying to stay Good in a world that expect...

In a society full of ..."Fuck em", "trust no one", and "I'll get them before they get me attitudes, it is no wonder people cannot find love and happiness. Love exists.... It is out there....and happiness awaits you... Both just waiting for you to get your shit together... Stop resisting and give life a chance... Give love a chance... Someone out there wants to give you the world...not everyone is out to get you...but if you keep approaching life with those types of attitudes...how in the world can you expect to see, let alone receive your blessings?? #thinkaboutit #beautifullybroken.

"I like missing you" He said... "It reminds me how I feel about you." God I Love him....

Just once I would like to not be too much of anything....not too extra, too needy, too emotional, Too sensitive, too loving, or too deep.... just once I wish I could be special, amazing and wonderful...without it being followed by a but...Can't I just be....me? Just once I wish I could just be enough... No more or no less.... Just enough....exactly how I am and who I am... Is that too much... to ask? #beautifllybroken

I love because it's what I know and how I feel and because love .. I can't imagine is a choice... But an emotion, a feeling...It's as natural as breathing, as praying, as believing....you see when I love there are no limits, no distance, no hurdles or mountains I would not climb...when I love I love simply because I love you..... #beautifullybroken

"I love everything about you" he would say ... Except that "EXTRA" shit... He must of meant how I stood by him even before he would commit? How I lay with him ... Stayed with him and prayed for him even knowing all those little things he would conveniently omit...By extra he meant the extra time and patience it took loving him? And by extra he must of meant how not once did I ever turned my back on him? So he said extra as if it's a bad thing but where was the extra when I was treating him like a king? And what about the happiness I would bring? Was that also extra or was that not as it seemed? Let me not forget the extra strength it took not to break down as I waited each time for him to come back around... How with open arms I would eagerly await not because I am weak but because I believe in Fate... And I believed in him... And in us too... So I waited on our debut...waited hoped and prayed letting nothing or no one stand in my way... And love was not just a ...

Running scared but appearing cool, calm, and collected...in truth I'm anything but and I'm far from unaffected...with a heart that's been unprotected, neglected and disrespected, it's hard for feeling not to be projected and misdirected. When all I want is to be adored... For you too to be on board and of the same accord. Cause we've both been down this road before and pain for us both has been well explored. Can you not see that I hurt when you hurt my heart bleeds when you bleed but I too am scared and although our pain can not compare can it not be shared and can another heart break not be spared? Trust is a word not easily achieved but it's possible if only we both believe. Love shouldn't come at a cost and love doesn't have to be lost but for love to work it will take two people being in it together... Two souls however lost fighting and believing in each other. #beautifullybroken But I am not her and you are not he...I did not break you and y...

I am needy they say.... Which ironically is fine as long as it's someone else doing the needing and the needs are not mine...Cause how dare I have needs of my own...how dare I fear being alone.... How dare I need the same love and assurance that I give and How dare I expect that you too have a heart that's willing to forgive... To forgive me when I fall short .. To forgive me when my emotions open a port.. And for the tears that fall as the shadows of fear calls.... Out my name.... Wendy.... You're too much of this and you're too much of that...except and unless I am not...it's only then that my flaws are forgotten....when they need me...I mean it's okay when it's me being the "Rock" ... Holding it down.. The pillar of strength that wears the crown..but where is the love when my rope is all out of length... When it's my heart that's weakened and I'm all out of strength? Where's the love when I'm hanging by only a thread left won...